I feel like I’m obligated to talk to you. Like its my job. & if I don’t, I’ll get in trouble. It’s so annoying. I shouldn’t feel the way I’m feeling. Ahh fuck. I’m such a complicated person. I wish I could only have one emotion for the rest of my life. I could never get hurt, sad, angry, annoyed, or any of that. I was just happy and content with everyone and everything. I never missed anything or anyone. I never got attached or caught feelings. I was just in my own world & no one could ever bring me down. Oh my fuck, I hate feeling like this.